Ever since Dylan was born, and we were hit with all of his medical conditions it has been on overdrive to make sure he stays healthy up until his surgery, so we could get through that and get him home to recover. I know I had some emotions from his birth, but honestly, I don’t think I really ever came personally with them. Once we got home from Dylan’s surgery and over all the stress of that, I think all of my emotions hit me at once, and it felt like someone hit me with a massive semi-truck!! This over powering anxiety came over me, and I could not think or do anything for days! I had some really dark days. Not to mention I basically did not sleep for two weeks (not good) but all the stress leading up to Dylan’s surgery was so over whelming. I just could not bear it! I was also dealing with the fact of having to go back to work and dealing with some separation anxiety of leaving him three days a week. I have been with him every day for the last five months. How could I be away from him? All I could do was pray that God would give me the strength to get through this and to trust in his guidance. The hardest part is behind us now, and we can breathe again!
Well, we are a little over a month since Dylan’s surgery, and we are all doing amazing! Dylan had his follow up on Wednesday with the doctor, and he is doing fabulous. His heart sounds and looks great; we got to give him his initial real bath in a month; he can go back to his normal activities, and he is just a ball of energy!! I have since gone back to work, in fact this is my first week, and I did great! It is really nice to go into work and have a little time to myself and get dressed up and truthfully feel like someone again. I LOVE my son and would give anything to be with him every day, but mommy has to work. My work has been so amazing in letting me work three days in the office and two days at home so I can be with Dylan on the days he has therapy. It is a very nice balance. Not to mention we have the most AMAZING nanny who is watching him and adores him so much, that it has helped me a lot to get back in the groove of things. I also have great comfort knowing he is in the best of hands. Greg is plugging away at work and working hard as usual. He is the most amazing husband and daddy a girl could ask for!
It feels really nice to have some sort of normal again. This past year has been a pretty crazy one for us or should we actually say the last two years! We got married, moved three times; both got new jobs, got pregnant, had a baby. Dylan had open-heart surgery. Can we PLEASE have a good 2013?
Greg and I have learned a lot through all of this, and we have become so much stronger in our marriage and faith through everything! One thing is for sure; life is not at any time easy, and you never know what will happen, but if you trust in God and have faith, he can get you through anything! We are so blessed in many ways in our life, and we are so thankful for everything we have and all the love we are surrounded by every single day. I love my family so much, and Dylan has been the most amazing gift of all. He is our baby, and we cannot wait to see what the future has in store for him!
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